Okay, so i have not been around for numerous reasons. I have been very busy with school, getting a job, and maintaining my personal life. I have tried to post “good morning” posts but it is hard: i have a bus to catch for one and for two the posts do not upload by the time i need to leave!
I can tell you now that my life it has been stressful and complex. You would think that since i am going through a pretty rough time i would have a lot of inspiration but honestly i don’t. I have not had the time to write and when i do my mind is mainly focused on my everyday problems. However, there are times where i am ready to sit down, write, and post. I have the topics of what i want to talk about in my mind but i can’t seem to find the words. I feel isolated, my mind feels clogged and i feel as if it is time to get out in the world and explore. New Orleans is a wonderful city but living in this area for so long has become boring to me. I have no enthusiasm to explore this wonderful city and that saddens me. I don’t know if this is weird but i feel as if i am ready to see what the world wants me to and go wherever the flow takes me. See, i am the type of person that likes to learn with experience: I want to feel in the moment, think in the moment and grasp all aspects of that moment! I don’t want to sit back and watch someone else experiencing the moment because i can’t fully understand and feel that way. I believe that me staying in one place has my mind in one general mind frame which is why i can’t write the way i want to. Does this make any sense??
As for my New Year’s resolution, i am actually accomplishing many of my goals!! How awesome is that right? I am proud of myself in so many ways! I do have problems maybe more than the average person but im growing into a better Randi. By the time i go to college i should be in a better place ready to take on the world. 🙂
Guys i am so ready and excited that is radiates through me!! I love you all and i promise i will try my hardest to post! Maybe it is time i take a break and get my mind where i feel it should be so that i can write with passion.
~Namaste all~
In the true reality of life as viewed from the enlightened state of a Buddha, one who has broken free of all delusion, all things are equal, transcending distinctions and differences between subject and object, self and others, mind and body, the spiritual and the material.
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