Okay, so i have not been around for numerous reasons. I have been very busy with school, getting a job, and maintaining my personal life. I have tried to post “good morning” posts but it is hard: i have a bus to catch for one and for two the posts do not upload by the time i need to leave!
I can tell you now that my life it has been stressful and complex. You would think that since i am going through a pretty rough time i would have a lot of inspiration but honestly i don’t. I have not had the time to write and when i do my mind is mainly focused on my everyday problems. However, there are times where i am ready to sit down, write, and post. I have the topics of what i want to talk about in my mind but i can’t seem to find the words. I feel isolated, my mind feels clogged and i feel as if it is time to get out in the world and explore. New Orleans is a wonderful city but living in this area for so long has become boring to me. I have no enthusiasm to explore this wonderful city and that saddens me. I don’t know if this is weird but i feel as if i am ready to see what the world wants me to and go wherever the flow takes me. See, i am the type of person that likes to learn with experience: I want to feel in the moment, think in the moment and grasp all aspects of that moment! I don’t want to sit back and watch someone else experiencing the moment because i can’t fully understand and feel that way. I believe that me staying in one place has my mind in one general mind frame which is why i can’t write the way i want to. Does this make any sense??
As for my New Year’s resolution, i am actually accomplishing many of my goals!! How awesome is that right? I am proud of myself in so many ways! I do have problems maybe more than the average person but im growing into a better Randi. By the time i go to college i should be in a better place ready to take on the world. 🙂
Guys i am so ready and excited that is radiates through me!! I love you all and i promise i will try my hardest to post! Maybe it is time i take a break and get my mind where i feel it should be so that i can write with passion.
~Namaste all~
Inside the mind of Randi... 